I started having feelings for her on the 6th of June, from the day of the chalet, even though I knew she had a bf. Even though I knew there would be no chance.
On 14 July 08, we hugged and kissed under her block. It felt as if it was my first kiss, but there were many uncertainties. She still had a bf, he still was an asshole, and it seemed as if there was no chance till the hug and the kiss. We talked after the kiss, and we kissed even more, and I held her hand, and decided there and then I don't want to let go of this pair of hands.
So here I am, karma to the max, third party in a relationship. And its not even like a third party, because we still dunno each other well enough. So I guess I'm pretty much what you would call a crush on her part, or maybe even just a passing thought. And yet, I'm happy and sad. Happy that I finally come to terms that I love her, and sad that it might all just come to an end soon. I hate to see anyone hurt. When he hurts her I feel pissed and hurt. But the worst hurt is prob the fact that she will nvr leave him. And yet, all I'm actually contented for, is just being with the one I love, to see her face, to talk to her, to be there for her, and just one kiss.. and one hug......
